“但现实就似一只鸭，下下都一定要duck……”
因为duck这个敏感词语，让我看麦兜时记住了这句歌词。生活很多时候都不可以说“唔得”，也不有人会问你“得唔得嘎”，所谓唔duck，都一定要duck，死撑到duck。
最近相当sensitive的情绪，让我感受到，人的成长往往是在很短的时间内完成的。也许只是当你出现自我意识的一瞬间的顿悟。但人的幸福却是要在很长的时间去体会的。应该是在你得到你的追求之前的所有的年年岁岁的积累。
但是得到目标之后呢？也许会像失去方向的飞翔。非得再高再远也是惘然。因为，你不知道你想要什么，你不知道自己想到何方。
有些事情，开始了就已经注定悲情的结局，虽然当事人并不知晓，等到非要命运去证明的时候，造成的伤害，又如何能挽回的了？我不会说谁是受害者，更不敢索求些补偿什么的。想起一句话：千金难买早知道，世上最贵后悔药。后悔药很贵，听说要用心肝去买...如果能买得到，我真的愿意。可惜，买不到，不会接受什么，终归一切，只怪在人天性里面的欲望，我只不过多了一份敏感而已……
别人说我荒唐，我说愿意；别人问我原因，我说别管。崇拜酒精的稀释能力，偶尔能让人达到片刻的放松，尽管终归那自由不是自己的。
比如蚌中揉进的沙砾，辗转反侧中，都提醒着伤痛，只有什么分泌物可以让它滑润，却也终究不可以消散的。
最近天黑得很早，正酝酿着去吃饭，发现已经灰暗来袭了。想起了余光中的一首诗，《蛛网》。
暮色是一只诡异的蜘蛛蹑水而来袭,
复足暗暗地起落,
平静的海面却不见踪迹,
也不知要向何处登陆,
只知道一回顾,
你我都已被擒,
落进它吐不完的灰网里。
这可能是目前生活上所有挣扎的形容吧。思想又纠结不清了……
无言ing……
独上西楼，月如钩。寂寞梧桐深院锁清秋。
剪不断，理还乱，是离愁，别是一番滋味在心头。
无言。。。。。。。别说自己唔duck……
南非世界杯主题曲 wavin' flag
When i get older, they'll call me freedom
Just like a Waving Flag.
[Chorus]
When I get older, I will be stronger,
They'll call me freedom, just like a Waving Flag,
And then it goes back, and then it goes back,
And then it goes back
Born to a throne, stronger than Rome
but Violent prone, poor people zone,
But it's my home, all I have known,
Where I got grown, streets we would roam.
But out of the darkness, I came the farthest,
Among the hardest survival.
Learn from these streets, it can be bleak,
Except no defeat, surrender retreat,
So we struggling, fighting to eat and
We wondering when we'll be free,
So we patiently wait, for that fateful day,
It's not far away, so for now we say
[Chorus]
So many wars, settling scores,
Bringing us promises, leaving us poor,
I heard them say, love is the way,
Love is the answer, that's what they say,
But look how they treat us, Make us believers,
We fight their battles, then they deceive us,
Try to control us, they couldn't hold us,
Cause we just move forward like Buffalo Soldiers.
But we struggling, fighting to eat,
And we wondering, when we'll be free
So we patiently wait, for that faithful day,
It's not far away, but for now we say,
[Chorus] 2x
(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And everybody will be singing it
(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And you and I will be singing it
(Ohhhh Ohhhh Ohhhhh Ohhhh)
And we all will be singing it
(Ohhh Ohh Ohh Ohh)
[Chorus] 2x
When I get older, when I get older
I will be stronger, just like a Waving Flag,
Just like a Waving Flag, just like a Waving flag
Flag, flag, Just like a Waving Flag
……
JT
