电影的开头和结尾的两段独白,让我认识到wolf的意识流风格为什么一直如此深入人心.当作家不容易,而将自己的生活划分为两部分,并且游刃有余地处理好两者之间的关系更不容易.我们看到电影里wolf最终崩溃了,即使她是如此爱自己的丈夫,但最后还是只能以死来结束她挣扎的生活,她的痛苦在于无法将自己从编造的生活中抽离出来...
Dearest, I feel certain that I am going mad again.
I feel we can't go through another of these terrible times,
and I... shan't recover this time.
I begin to hear voices,and can't concentrate.
So, I am doing what seems to be the best thing to do.
You have given me the greatest possible happiness.
You have been in every way all that anyone could be.
I know that I am spoiling your life,and without me,you could work.
And you will,i know.You see, I can't even write this properly.
What I want to say is that I owe all the happiness of my life to you.
You have been entirely patient with me...and incredibly good.
Everything's gone from me but the certainty of your goodness.
I can't go on spoiling your life any longer.
I don't think two people could have been happier than we have been.
Virginia.
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Dear Leonard,
to look life in the face...always to look life in the face,and to know it for what it is.At last, to know it,to love it for what it is,and then...to put it away.
Leonard...always the years between us,always the years...always... the love...always...the hours.
睡与不睡都将导致万劫不复的结局.
前者让人失去生活的重心,失去与外界的联系,失去对事物应有的判断力.我们思绪混乱,困惑,失眠接踵而至.而后者,长时间过度的清醒,大脑得不到片刻休整,我们被身边的琐事所牵绊,思考得太多而做得又太少,事物孰重孰轻拿捏不到位.我们变得忧郁,敏感并无形地影响着身边的人.电影里我们看到,这两种生活的状态导致了两种结果-自杀,自杀未遂.
我不后悔,因为没有选择
一个可以抛弃丈夫,子女,家庭,所有一切却从未有过悔意的女人确实值得我们去深入探讨.lara是这样的女人,电影一开始就初见端倪.她总是冷漠地对待周围的一切,对丈夫,对儿子,对还未出生的女儿,她们之间本来是可以很轻松愉快的,却在lara的阴影下变的憋闷,那么的不畅快.面对每天在外忙碌的丈夫,并不怎么活泼的儿子,lara只是握着那本名叫ms dalloway的小说,单纯地计划着某天在某间宾馆结束掉自己的生命.她无视责任的超脱让人觉得可鄙,使本可以一直享受天伦之乐的一家人最后支离破碎.尤其是儿子在事业有成即将得到工作最高殊荣的时刻选择了自杀,他的自杀lara绝对是最主要的原因.wolf说,在这个故事里必须得有人死去,现实中她选择了自己,死并不值得惋惜,死的意义在于让活着的人更好的生活下去,她希望丈夫在她死后可以拥有自己的生活.而lara本来是必死无疑的,但是就在那一刻,wolf改变了主意,lara自杀未遂,导致了后来的一切.一个本来应该死去的人却活在了最后,带给了周围人无尽的伤痛,这也是生命的代价. lara最后说的话给了人思考的余地--很难想象母亲遭遇了儿子自杀却毫无悔意,为什么要后悔?后悔是因为我们觉得还有选择,当我们没有选择的时候,我们还会后悔吗?lara的悲剧不在于整个家庭的破裂,而在于她没有任何的选择,生活并不是她所想要的,爱情不是,婚姻不是,子女更不是,而她却要在这样的情形下担当无数被生活所树立起来的角色,她无意承担,她只能选择逃避,就像电影的最开始,lara一觉醒来本想自己去买花的,亲自去挑选自己喜欢的花,期待地跨出房门发现丈夫已经为她买了美丽的鲜花插在花瓶里了,生活连这样小小的要求就难以达到,她无从选择,活着的意义又是什么呢?
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